What has Happened to Me?

What has happened to me?
Where has this come from?
What did those sixteen weeks mean,
at the end of this year,
when I completely fell apart.
I could barely think a complete thought,
and could find no peace
regardless of what course of action I considered.
All day long,
throughout those sixteen weeks,
I lay curled into a ball,
churning over fearful thoughts.
I couldn’t get away.
It would not stop.
And it is still going,
Eighteen weeks later.
Though it is not as bad as before,
which is probably because
I’m busy at work.

...DONT B